Ada yang tergerus pada yang dibilang hati, menelungkup sanubari, kelu. terbawa angin sendu, terhanyut hujan, biru. berpeluk pada satu ingatan, haru. jatuh dalam bayang kala itu. metamorfosa tak selamanya berlaku. beginikah rasanya jika temu, hanya berujung rindu? Tasikmalaya, 20-12-2015 Aisyah.
i start writing again, this part of me has been gone for too long. Yet, i dont wanna stop. I am just gonna write whatever crosses my mind right now. As per today, I did a morning run a bit with a very slow pace, but im so happy. I beat my ownself to not stay in bed and wake up at 12 on Sunday. You know what's funny? I remembered how he told me to run with him and say that we could increase my running pace together. LOL. Know i realized, it was just probably a dream for now. Idk when I will meet the guy like that who can possibly help me improving myself and let me be the best version of myself. I can not realy on anyone at the moment. So I wake up and practice harder just to prove myself that I can do it with or without him or anyone. Well maybe i still need a PT or a coach, but not a person that I could adore and love while running myself out. God im really tired. But maybe God wants to test me longer..