ada begitu banyak bentuk cinta dan diantaranya adalah cinta yang tidak dapat dimiliki cinta yang sebegitu kuat dan kokoh yang tegar diterpa badai dan rintangan apapun nmun pada akhirnya tetap tidak bisa dimiliki pedihnya cinta itu padahal pun berbalas hanya saja, cinta tidak selamanya bisa menang dan tidak semua orang bisa memiliki cinta yang dia inginkan karena cinta juga memilih dan kadang harus tidak dipilih namun cinta selamanya akan tetap ada walau pada akhirnya cinta hanya bisa dijaga dalam hati terkadang dalam lantunan doa dan tangis kesendirian tak apa, karena ada satu cinta yang pasti bisa dimiliki cinta-Nya jika kamu percaya  

Finally I realise that not all of the promised can be fulfilled. Some of it should be let go. Because even the nicest person can do the most evil thing. Hoping that you would meet someone perfect is not possible. Everyone can make mistakes and sins. You cant see pure angels in this world. They are all problematic. They are all miserable at some points. So if you ever thought that 'oh this man is perfect' then you are all wrong. No one can be as perfect as angels.  However, there is always a way out for every problems or mistakes or sins in this world. This world is cruel yes, but God is beyond everything. So if you believe in God and his existence, im sure you will find peace in it. Because you know, that He will always forgive you. And i feel it now. I feel in peace. Although, problems and sins have come shaking my body and broken my bones into pieces, and tore my hearts apart, i am okay now. Because I know, after some time, that God will never leave me. Even after I did a lot...

no matter how big your love is or how much you miss a person, as long as they are not meant for you then you just need to hold those feelings within yourself. and let them go.  it is so painful.  really. unrequited love is the worst.

Kasih sayangmu membekas Redam kini sudah pijar istimewa Entah apa maksud dunia Tentang ujung cerita, kita tak bersama Semoga rindu ini menghilang Konon katanya waktu sembuhkan Akan adakah lagi yang sepertimu? (Tulus- Hati-hati di Jalan) ---------  terimakasih. aku hancur dan patah.  tapi semoga aku masih bisa mencinta yang sama menyayangi yang utuh dan dicintai sebaiknya lagi dihargai sepenuh hati.  tidak akan ada lagi yang sama atau mungkin kembali seperti semula tinggal hanya aku dan ribuan doa semoga kita dikuatkan. 

 hari ini aku nonton shihab-shihab tentang persahabatan. dan aku dapat banyak banget pelajaran dalam satu video ini yang somehow lagi pas banget dalam hidupku sekarang. bismillah semoga bisa diterapkan.  Source :  https://youtu.be/3jDtBfMENK4

it is okay.  just keep breathing.  just keep alive.  love what God gives to you today.  be grateful and lets start it over.  it is okay if they dont care or pray for your happiness if they blame or judge you God knows the truth and He knows what you had tried.  lets be happy for their happiness and God will give you your happiness.  but please keep breathing. you are fine. 

It is okay. i tried my best. i never mean anything bad to anyone. and I did my very best for you people. I am kind, I pray for bad things to not happen. i know I tried. and I just love them very much. but I know it could be a mistake. and I know today may come, as i tried to fix things, the day when you leave me. leaving me with all the scars left in my heart, with all the pain that cant be healed, with the shame that cant be forgiven.  but I believe that Allah is forgiving. Allah is loving me as long as i tried to change. and as we always talked before, we will not regret for whatever things we did in the past. we will cherish it as our good memories because we never meant any harm to anyone. and we are grateful for the life that we have. And if you ever read this blog again, one day. you have to know that Im dying here. Losing hopes and good memories, losing my best and again, im dying. i wish i could just leave this world with no pain But i want to defend myself that I wasnt com...