im so tired.

 i am not doing fine

i am trying to be fine

but life has not been easy or nice to me lately

i miss my best friend and it seems they wont come to me so often

i am home but my closest one does not welcome me most

i am ignored and unrespected

i hate myself even more lately

i am left by my first love

i miss him but he cant see me the same

i love the wrong person

and i hate the fact that people that i love most

are the ones who hurt me most

i want to find my happiness

i distract myself with everything

but it is still the same. 

the pain

the heartbroken

and i hate that i cant be with someone i like

someone who loves me the most

a person who sacrifices a lot for me

why God let us be separate, when i know he can be the best person to me

the kindest above all person i know

but why is it so hard for us to be together..

i dont know if there is still another chance

i dont know what kind of happiness which await for me in the future

i hope there will be at least one happiness for me

please god..

im so tired of life for now

i want to feel loved. 

help me oh dear God.