i am not doing fine i am trying to be fine but life has not been easy or nice to me lately i miss my best friend and it seems they wont come to me so often i am home but my closest one does not welcome me most i am ignored and unrespected i hate myself even more lately i am left by my first love i miss him but he cant see me the same i love the wrong person and i hate the fact that people that i love most are the ones who hurt me most i want to find my happiness i distract myself with everything but it is still the same.  the pain the heartbroken and i hate that i cant be with someone i like someone who loves me the most a person who sacrifices a lot for me why God let us be separate, when i know he can be the best person to me the kindest above all person i know but why is it so hard for us to be together.. i dont know if there is still another chance i dont know what kind of happiness which await for me in the future i hope there will be at least one happiness for me please god.. im