I'm drinking coffee sip by sip. listening to Korean music while watching my niece drawing sketches. what a quiet afternoon at home. and me, wondering what i should be wondering. exactly not having certain thoughts about anything. but you know confusion is part of me daily now. i wonder it is probably because I'm 28, have no prospected husband soon to be and get more pressures about getting married by friends, families, and social environment, haven't started working on my jobs and then kinda trying to figure out what my future will look like. which is naive if i said i didn't get influence by those. I was okay before. but since i have so many things going on in my mind, literally sometimes it is just me with a lot of issues and overthinking attacks, every night. i really need someone to help me cope with all the problems. but actually, happiness is not about how others help you to find one, you should be happy first, they say. I know I know, but how if it is just too h

 i always try my best to everyone that i love  to people that matters a lot to me i show the love, the courage, and the sacrifices some people will appreciate it some others just got annoyed by it the rest just leave it like nothing happened, no response. and these kinds of people are whom i hate the most it is okay, you can tell me to stop you can tell me to continue but you cant take me for granted acting like you care and love me but then just hurt me in the end. nobody is too busy. and you know that.