hello blog! been such another long time.  i lost my father last on Jan17th.  I never experienced something like that before.  Heartbreaking but it was more like genuinely letting him go.  cause I know he was suffering. and i know that he was ready.  Dad is the best man that I ever knew in my life. He has so many flaws yet i cant count on his kindness to me. I cant even repay him for all the things that he gave to me.  i wish he could stay longer with me and witnessing me be a good girl for him anyway we fought a lot the last 2 years, because i was getting more grownup.  and i felt like knowing things more than him sometimes.  yet we never really fought,  we are still so close to each other, as he joked around with me he checked on me all the time.  and he was really smart, my discuss partner.  my life saviour cause he was the one who always trusted me to travel to live my life like i want to be he was my best supporter he was my forever admirer, posting my pictures anywhere showing oth