Kasih sayangmu membekas Redam kini sudah pijar istimewa Entah apa maksud dunia Tentang ujung cerita, kita tak bersama Semoga rindu ini menghilang Konon katanya waktu sembuhkan Akan adakah lagi yang sepertimu? (Tulus- Hati-hati di Jalan) ---------  terimakasih. aku hancur dan patah.  tapi semoga aku masih bisa mencinta yang sama menyayangi yang utuh dan dicintai sebaiknya lagi dihargai sepenuh hati.  tidak akan ada lagi yang sama atau mungkin kembali seperti semula tinggal hanya aku dan ribuan doa semoga kita dikuatkan. 

 hari ini aku nonton shihab-shihab tentang persahabatan. dan aku dapat banyak banget pelajaran dalam satu video ini yang somehow lagi pas banget dalam hidupku sekarang. bismillah semoga bisa diterapkan.  Source :  https://youtu.be/3jDtBfMENK4

it is okay.  just keep breathing.  just keep alive.  love what God gives to you today.  be grateful and lets start it over.  it is okay if they dont care or pray for your happiness if they blame or judge you God knows the truth and He knows what you had tried.  lets be happy for their happiness and God will give you your happiness.  but please keep breathing. you are fine. 

It is okay. i tried my best. i never mean anything bad to anyone. and I did my very best for you people. I am kind, I pray for bad things to not happen. i know I tried. and I just love them very much. but I know it could be a mistake. and I know today may come, as i tried to fix things, the day when you leave me. leaving me with all the scars left in my heart, with all the pain that cant be healed, with the shame that cant be forgiven.  but I believe that Allah is forgiving. Allah is loving me as long as i tried to change. and as we always talked before, we will not regret for whatever things we did in the past. we will cherish it as our good memories because we never meant any harm to anyone. and we are grateful for the life that we have. And if you ever read this blog again, one day. you have to know that Im dying here. Losing hopes and good memories, losing my best and again, im dying. i wish i could just leave this world with no pain But i want to defend myself that I wasnt complet

I just realized that I really dont have anyone to lean on. I dont have anyone else, except Allah. He could flip my heart the seconds i felt sad or happy. He is the one where I can depend on, and no one else. When you feel like you are alone, actually He is never asleep. He is there. And now, I know, I should stop depending on people whom I love. I can love them, but I have to love them because of Him. And not, because i want them to love me back. Because I know, i would be disappointed if they dont love me the same. But I believe, Allah loves me unconditionally. No matter how far I went from Him before, He will welcome me back when I correct myself. And I believe that He is preparing many good things for me, as long as I do what Im told to do. I know, Im full of sins and so reckless, but I know Allah is so forgiving. And I can keep asking His uncountable bless. I am so afraid for all the things i had done, but it is also difficult to stop. But Allah keeps showing His love to me, and im

 i dont remember the day but i remember after that, i am so happy i am surrounded by love and challenges at the same time i have a reason to stay strong and be happy because i wanna give my happiness to you but then i also remember that my life is not that simple anymore now that im afraid of losing someone loving you means i have to ready to let you go at any time and then ill be in miserable ,  all by myself. it is bitter sweet. but i always want you to know  that no matter how difficult it is,  or if we ended up breaking up our tied, just remember all the good things that ever happened between us they are irreplaceable.  and let the memories be our lights in every darkness that we would face and one day, lets meet again with smiley faces and greet each other happily