I just experienced a sad day, on last friday. seeing my annoying best friend cried. He rarely cried and looked sad. but at the day, i saw his broken shape. Losing his dad is his most agony. And i couldnt hold my tears. it was a sad day. but we never know God's plans. He always prepares a good thing after a bad thing. Inna maal usri yusro. And I always believe it. And He knows what best to us. We are only His small creatures with a lot of emotions and weakness. I hope my friend can be stronger and bigger after this.  I also experienced another sad day. When I saw my phone all day long waiting for someone to text me. But it never happened. He never cared what i was doing or whether i was waiting for his hello. I care a lot about someone whom never thought of me. I was dying to know what's up with him yet he didnt. heart broken. but we never know God's plans. Maybe he doesnt deserve me. maybe i will meet someone else better. or maybe this is just a test from God. I hope m

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