hello blog!
been such another long time.
i lost my father last on Jan17th.
I never experienced something like that before.
Heartbreaking but it was more like genuinely letting him go.
cause I know he was suffering. and i know that he was ready.
Dad is the best man that I ever knew in my life. He has so many flaws yet i cant count on his kindness to me. I cant even repay him for all the things that he gave to me.
i wish he could stay longer with me and witnessing me be a good girl for him
anyway we fought a lot the last 2 years, because i was getting more grownup.
and i felt like knowing things more than him sometimes.
yet we never really fought,
we are still so close to each other, as he joked around with me
he checked on me all the time.
and he was really smart, my discuss partner.
my life saviour cause he was the one who always trusted me to travel
to live my life like i want to be
he was my best supporter
he was my forever admirer, posting my pictures anywhere
showing others that he was proud of me
yet he never told me directly
he taught me things: both good things and bad things
he let me to join his adventurous life, his nature admiration
and he influence me to pursue the same dreams sometimes
and i did it anyway cause im more like him actually
he loved me with his ways
he was not perfect at all
but he was the best that i could have
the only guy that i ever loved so much
the one who didnt stop loving me until his last breath
Ayah. im sorry for everything
i love you so much and i miss you.
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