Dear best,

Dearest my best friend,  (oh can i still call you that? )

How is life doing there? I wish nothing but happiness and joy for you and your family.

Today i opened my old laptop and found out some precious pictures from our old encounters. And I got surprised on how much I liked you back then that I did backup our texts from years ago. Silly me. Maybe I knew that this kind of time might come to us. 

And I read those texts from years ago. They were silly conversations but I liked it. It was a genuine talk about work, work, and work hehehe. However from those texts, I can tell that you were looking out for me all the time, asking me whether I already arrived in the office or not, making sure that I was safely home at night. Back then, I had you as my backup in every meetings, tasks, and many more. Also, It was so funny reading how you used to call me 'kak'.  That friendship was very pure and beautiful and I love that. 

You were once my little brother that I adored so much. Im sorry that I dont know much about your life right now, and I miss our talks so much. I wish those happy times could go back to our current life, the care that you gave to me was precious and I wish it would always last as we always talked before. Even though we are not standing side by side anymore, I want to believe that your love for me stays the same. 

I remember how you were so excited on many things we worked on and I always complained about the work. Yet you always listened. I got annoyed by you so many times yet I got attached to you a lot. I even miss those fights and debates that we always had. 

'How are you?' I cant even say this to you cause it might disturb your day. 

but you know,  I really miss you. 

And yes i cry a lot. 

but I am okay,  just in case you are worried.